That was answered earlier. I expect it will be back up by the end of the week. So far no one who has read the year's worth of newsletters (except you) has found anything criminal, but the process is not complete yet.
I believe a higher authority will determine what you meant when you suggested suicide. You should speak to a lawyer... or not. I don't care. It is out of my hands.
I knew you couldn't find a quote where I suggested suicide. I will reiterate, however, that if you DO decide to kill yourself, I wouldn't try to talk you out of it, and, if it is televised, I wouldn't mind watching.